Life before kids, my house was clean. My car was clean. No food stuck to the seat. No spilled drinks. I could listen to any music and didn't have to turn the station for language. I didn't say it but I didn't have to almost run out of the road to hurry and change the station while yelling ahhhhhhhhhhhhh in case I wasn't fast enough. I could go out to eat anywhere I wanted without wondering if there was something everyone could or would eat. I could go watch a movie without finding someone to watch my babies. Yes, the good ol' days.........or were they?
Life was not really FULL before kids. When I was pregnant with my first, even though I was so sick and miserable beyond belief, there were those moments that only I was able to experience. No one else could feel just how my body changed from the inside out. Only I could feel all those kicks and jumps and the swinging from my ribs and the pain that went with it. No one could feel GOD using me to bring this precious baby into the world and grow this tiny life that I now am responsible for. God trusted me with these tiny souls to bring them up in HIM. The feelings of love, prtection, excitement, wonder and pure horrer that went along with it.
To feel this baby grow and kick and THEN.......the dreaded labor and delivery! Would I get to the hospital in time? Would the epidural take? Am I going to feel it ALL? Oh please don't let me have a c-section! But really which one would be worse?
Well, my worst nightmare came true.........a c-section! I was terrified! When people say you forget the pain......you don't! You just understand............IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!!!!
I love my babies and wouldn't trade a moment of it.......well.........not one!!!
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